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Take It To The Lord In Prayer......And Breathe!

 When do you say "I can't take on anything else right now?" How do you learn to say it? How do you chose what to cut out and what to take on? When faced with a decision of what the best option is, how do you know? Obviously the first step is to pray and ask God for direction. But have you ever been so confused, with so many thoughts in your head you have no idea what you are really praying for?
 It is so amazing to me that God knows what I need, how I need it, when I need it. He shuts the doors I need shut even if I am pawing at them to stay open. He drags me away like my mom used to do when I wanted something in the store when I was two. Just like me mom knew that candy would ruin my dinner. God knows that, that door isn't where I need to be.
 I hate saying no to things. I want to be able to do it all, sometimes I can I just have to re-arrange priorities.  Like letting go of my perfectly organized plan day. I have silly ideas that it would be so much better for me if I let go. I want to enjoy life and my studies. Dance is my passion and to pursue this requires practice time and dedication to strength training which I really enjoy. I am thrilled about being in Honors band this year and feel like that was the right decision for me. Advanced band is a great band and required for honors. I wanted to run for student rep last year, but didn't meet the requirements. So I want to at least run this year. I view worship team a small time commitment that serves a great purpose. I also love praising my God with fellow believers on Sunday morning.
  These reasons all keep floating in my head. To be able to do this, I need to be open to my parents guidance and listening to God telling me where there is a shut door. I need to know that I don't know everything and at times will be need to be taught something. Accepting help is always wise. Sorry for my ramblings as I basically work through my thoughts. Any advice is welcome in the comments.

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  1. Keep praying, listening, and drinking coffee. Oh, yeah, and BREATHING is very important! Love you!

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  2. I totally know how you feel..... :P

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